Why do we disembody from our mindfulness practices?


Over the last three years and I have struggled with maintaining my own mindfulness practices. I experienced a tremendous amount of grief all at once. It hit me as if someone had pulled the chair out from under me and I had not realized how far it was to the floor. I was being hit so fast with so much that my body was using disembodiment as a protection mechanism –which there is value to this. I was experiencing my being through a whole other aspect. I have kept up with my self-care practices even beefed them up more than usual. I let go of my attachments to what “I thought they should be” and allowed myself to choose practices that “would support me” at the moment. I no longer felt guilty for doing my self-care practices because I realized that they were an act of self-care and self-love and those that judged me for doing them told a story more about that person than me. Society doesn’t value the miraculousness of the body’s ability to self-regulate and self-heal.

As I found a path out to a new perspective I realized that this was an act of mindfulness and yet again another personal growth journey. I began to take my learning into the worlds of nerves, organs, feelings, and needs. I am no longer afraid to feel the big joy and aliveness that my personal practices bring me. When I manage the mud the lotus of my heart can bloom.

What does dis-embodiment mean? It is the act of instance of disembodying on the state of being disembodied.  Disembody is the separate or free (of something) from its concrete form and to deprive of bodily existence. We know that roughly ninety-five percent of what we do is driven by our unconsciousness. If through our personal practices of movement we can make the unconscious conscious how will that affect our lives? This leads me to my next question- How do I inspire clients to understand the treasure of their body? When we are alive and doing our movement practices to the best of our ability at that time of doing we are living in the present tense and we have an awareness to listen to our bodies messages which are embodiment.

 In the unconscious mind, we have things like our belief system, memories, narratives, intuition, moment-to-moment sensations and so on. Do we fully allow ourselves to feel it? Or have we turned down the volume because our culture couldn’t tolerate all the feelings or not have the ability to understand us. We don’t get to turn the volume down on just pain instead when we turn the volume down we are turning the volume down on everything. This leads to things like losing trust in ourselves, thinking that movement will hurt us, that any felt sense must be bad and so on. Our right brain is where we connect with our feeling of being whole. When we allow our stories to take over we are disconnecting from our sense of knowing and our “should’s” take over. Stories don’t happen in the present tense. Examples of stories are: I’ll ruin someone time with my needs; I’m a burden; No one likes me; When I get the new job I’ll feel great.  How do we avoid our body? We disconnect through moving to the left brain and work on becoming our “should’s” our ego mind says to stay within these narrow parameters?  While our inner wisdom usually asks questions like: What are you capable of? Who are you? What is good for you?

All of this is difficult and painful work as we learn to accept all of our emotions and flow the body through movement. No Mud- No Lotus!

 

Resources: Bliss and Grit Episode #12 http://www.blissandgrit.com/

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